How to deal with EXTREMLEY hurtful contralling mother?

every single night she comes in my room and shouts her head of saying im dirt and that shes the boss and that she wishes i was neva born i hate it i litterally cry myselfd to sleep i tell her to shush i talk to her nycly i try my best but it dont work i cant handle it its too much she finks shes 100% contral of me she emmbarrses me she is even trying to turn my bff against me by saying im the rudest child alive: LIE she is out to ruin my lyf i have done evrything talked to her be nyc nothing works thats y im rude which is answering her back tellin her to shush she says she wanted to replace me its not a joke and wen i answer back she hits me with my own shoe :((( im very upset btw im not living with my dad he left her and im not suppresied but i c him she neva ever listens EVA even wen her friends tell her its soo hurtful and im not gonna tell the social services cuz we r already on that plz help me i know ur gonna say u cant help but can u at least give me advice on how to deal or how to block ouot mean words?? thx x